66) True Self..?
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“Ahh~!! The great outdoor..!!”
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Cuba teka, siapa punya ayat tu? Jika anda pemain DotA, pasti anda tahu siapakah gerangannya yang mengeluarkan ayat tersebut. It’s the Enchantress. Stok pompuan dari pinggang ke atas, tapi rusa dari pinggang ke bawah yang terkinja-kinja dok baling lembing kat orang. Aku pun tatau la dia pakai coli ke tak. Walaupun dah zoom in, still tak berapa jelas la. Demn..!! So, kalau ada sesiapa yang tahu apa saiznya, silalah inform ya? Ilmu jika dikongsi pastinya bercambah. Heheheheh..
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Beberapa minggu lepas, baru lepas “menguruskan” geng-geng Petronas Treasury Group buat program kat Lenggong. Menarik jugak. Dapat la tumpang sekaki main Flying Fox dan river crossing FOC (free of charge). Ada la jugak dalam segelas aku terminum air Sungai Perak tu. Hahahahah!! Itu tak penting, yang penting dapat baju free because I designed it. Ngahahahah!! So aaa.. To all Petronas Treasury Group, you all patut bangga apa sbb you pakai baju yang direka oleh “empunya resume paling konfiden”. Kah! Kah! Kah!
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Alaaa.. Kalau dah nama Petronas, sure jumpa budak UTP punya. Maka terjumpalah Wak Edi (Ediwarman). Perh, lama sial tak jumpa mamat nih sejak dok Semarang dulu. Pecah je masuk RK, terus tatau apa cerita. Demn..!! Teringat time dia kena kunci dek room mate dia, takleh masuk bilik. Hahahahah!! Wak.. Wak..
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Walaupun jawatan yang diberikan ialah management executive, but my job also requires me to buat benda-benda outdoor jugak ma. Ye la, kalau tak buat, mcm mana nak faham, dan macam mana nak cerita pada orang. At least, kalau dah tau, boleh try masuk marketing plak. (Right now, my job is in handling modules and pengiklanan). So, in weekdays, I do “management” things. But in holidays, saja dok menyibuk dalam outdoor acivities.
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At least enjoy meh.. Work all day and no play make us dull person. Aku pernah cakap kat mak ayah aku yang kerja aku ni sekarang ni gaji rendah gila. So, diorang dok risau kalau tetiba Petronas mintak aku bayar balik scholar (maklumlah, third class only maaa). Nak buat macam mana, kalau diorang dah tanya, takkan nak menipu kot. So, diorang dok suruh aku register SPA (Suruhanjaya Pentadbiran Awam ke Sex and Porn Association?). Takpun suruh masuk polis (no, I don’t wanna do “blowjob”!! Noo~!! Nyiaaaa~!!).
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Still, I stick to this job walaupun ada orang Honda dan Kementerian Alam Sekitar offer kerja yang lain. Yes, if I think it deeply, they give better offer meh. Higher salary. But why the fuck I still pledge my loyalty to this company? (Hanya 6-7 orang je tau sebab sebenarnya. Tapi bukan itu yang nak dibicarakan. Itu hanya “tujuan sampingan”. Heheheheheh..) Ok cut the crap. The main reason is, because I really like my job. Also because I like the environment and the people in this company.
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Why I like my job? Because I gain new knowledge each every day. Bila assist certified professional coach and trainer buat module, memang konfirm dapat banyak ilmu yang memang ngam dengan minat aku – mengenai behavior manusia. Itu mahal woo.. Orang lain nak attend kursus (stok-stok CEO, GM, AGM, Manager, Exec), dok kena bayar dalam RM500 – RM 1000+, aku plak dapat benda tu FOC!! Wahahahahah!! Sangap memalam? Takde komik nak dibaca? Baca je la skit-skit module orang tu. Why waste it just like that if that is the only opportunity that I have to get it with the lowest price and effort?
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Setakat ni, baru berkenaan dengan Coaching and Mentoring dan Business Coaching. Dan itu memang berkaitan dengan apa yang pernah aku buat sebelum-sebelum ini di UTP – coaching and mentoring in silat classes. That’s why I really like it. Projek modul seterusnya mungkin berkenaan Executive Coaching. Well, to tell you the truth, I don’t even give a fuck about the “busness” or “executive” terms. What I really interested in is on “how to handle people” – is it considered as “social engineering” or “emotional intelligence”?
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And where is the platform for me to apply and practice all the knowledge that I have gained? In communications in replying emails for all the people who emailed me about my resume!! Kah! Kah! Kah! Now I know how to “maneuver” that famousness into my advantage. Now I realized on how to change that “problem” into an “opportunity”. It’s not that bad afterall.. Very intriguing and interesting..
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Yes, I give standard reply mail (the content is a bit same la). But cara penyampaiannya ada yg berbeza skit (sekarang ada yang dah ditambah isinya dan corak bahasanya – terutama pada pembukaan dan penutup). Semua bergantung kepada jenis orang yang hantar email kepada aku. And that’s not all, I also use each every phonecalls and sms that I received to reply in various ways. Just to test either the knowledge that I have learnt can be used in that situation or not.
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Yes, I do the “trial and error” thing. To some people, I reply langxi one. Kasi garang, cengih gila. To some people, I reply very polite one. I also try “makan dalam” approacah to certain people. And not to mention, bow down gila babi rendah diri to certain people. And inspite of my “anti-social” characteristic that is very hard to trust others (or maybe because payah nak senyum), I have tried in a “mesra” type of approach to certain people. And the results are, many of them now considered as my friends, some of them can be in such a “mentor” or “coach” way for me to revise and refer anything, and some of them ends up in the thrash mails.
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Wah, very syok woo.. In just several weeks, I can try to apply my knowledge to various types of people. I have already realized that learning by just reading is not enough. I must try to apply it, then I will know either it works or not. The thing is, before, I don’t have any chance to apply it.
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Understanding the theories only is not enough. Only when it is applied in the real situation, then we can know the results and the most suitable condition and timing to use the knowledge to the max. With the right timing, only then we can see that knowledge is indeed POWER.
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When everyday I made contact with various types of people, then everyday is a challenge. Just like playing video games. Killing the same monster over and over again is such a boring thing la. But if we explore to other places (well, in my case, my resume is the one doing the exploring) and meet many types of monsters, then it’s a challenge, and that what makes a game is so interesting. Only then we feel so “addicted” to it just because we want to beat those monsters with all our might and creativity.
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There are of course, failures. Even if I tried to use all my knowledge to convince these types of people, they still oppose me like shit. So, that means that I still didn’t have enough knowledge to handle these types of people. So, these types of people, I just keep them in my “recycle bin”.
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I try to be nice, they still do shit. I try to langxi, they also do shit. I tolak ansur and just admit whatever they want me to admit, they still do shit. I apologize, also they do shit. I try to bow down and respect their opinion, they still do shit. Bow down have limits meh.. Even to respect people cannot lebih dari had “rukuk”. Even padi punya tunduk pun takde sampai tenggelam dalam air meh. Takkan mau kasi rendah sampai kena pijak? So, these type of people, is surely just wasting my time and deserve to “rest in peace” (either for a while, or permanently) in the recycle bin.
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If we are just a character level 60, meet monster level 200 punya keras kepala, then just leave the monster la. Better find monster yang mampu diketuk meh.. But when we already level 195+, better watch out la. Surely that monster will be killed like shit la. Jumpa je, terus potong kepala. Maybe I should apply that “fully”in my blog la. Because in here, I already at the top level. Anyone I can potong kepala just like that. Wahahahahah!! Yes..!! Hate me..!! Detest me..!! Then leave my blog!! Or just stay here and bear with the pain in the ass..!! Choose which path you want!! Muahahahahahah!!
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Wanna create a blog that counter this blog? I don’t even give a fuck about it. (First of all, because I only read the blog links in the side menu ONLY – itu pun ada yg memang aku tak baca sangat pun. And secondly, I have already explained about “daripada meracun kebun orang hingga kebun sendiri terabai yg mana dedua tak dapat untung, lebih baik concentrate jaga dan majukan kebun sendiri”).
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Just think logically la.. Memetik daripada kata-kata seseorang kepada aku mengenai “minat”, dia kata lebih kurang gini:
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“Di peringkat manapun, kita ingin cari dan jadikan suatu tempat itu untuk melepaskan tekanan dan sebagai tempat untuk mendapatkan ketenangan Perbincangan dan pengetahuan yang diperoleh daripada tempat tersebut amat berguna bagi memotivasikan diri dan menguatkan semangat untuk perjalanan hidup seterusnya. Di tempat kerja banyak betul tekanannya sama ada daripada ketua atau tekanan akibat bebanan kerja yang melampau. Di rumah, kadang kala kita menghadapi beberapa tekanan tapi tidak sampai ke peringkat untuk melarikan diri daripada tanggungjawab yang terpikul. Namun kita juga memerlukan satu tempat yang benar-benar bebas daripada sebarang ikatan tanggungjawab dalam masa beberapa jam. Pastinya ini adalah salah satu tempatnya.”
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Well, maybe some people ask, “Why do you like writing?”. Jawapannya mungkin pada Entry 1 – untuk berkongsi sesuatu perkara HANYA DENGAN MEREKA YANG SA-UDARA. Manakala mereka yang tidak sa-udara pula hanya akan memahami luarannya sahaja (sebab tuh jenis nih banyak songeh.. Hahahahah!! Jangan marah aaa.. Nanti cepat tua~ Nyiaa~). But the other reason is: Only in here I have the full power, command, control & manipulate, to speak out my thoughts and be my own self without even have to hide it and be a hypocrit!!
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I’m tired to be hypocrit meh.. Even if I like the movie V for Vendetta gila-gila punya, I still don’t like to wear that Guy Fawkes mask, 24/7 meh. So, only this place la kasi dapat bukak itu Guy Fawkes mask.
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Ok, berbalik kepada tadi.. That is why I like my job. Even malam pun still lepak ofis meh (memang la sebab aku tidur kat sini pun). And to tell you the truth, I really like this quote, and it’s really true (for me la):
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“Bila badan dah penat dan tak boleh nak teruskan lagi, maka minda pula yang mula bergerak..”
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And I couldn’t agree more. Ini kerana, itulah yang berlaku ketika aku terlibat dalam “persatuan” dulu. Hatta kebanyakan motivation course yang melibatkan outdoor pun apply mcm tu. Kasi dah letih gila, baru kasitau teori – then relate it, baru faham keseluruhannya. Kalau kita tengok orang-orang tua pun mostly banyak menghabiskan masa membaca. Paling koman pun baca sokaba. Ya, kerana badan dah letih dan tak larat, tetapi minda still tangkas. Mungkin sebab itu old people are said to have more wisdom.
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So what’s wrong if I do hard outdoor works? Ramai yang bila melihat, akan anggap ia sebagai kerja kuli. I don’t even give a shit about it. Because I gain something that is really meaningful to me and works for me. And you know what? Most of my entries in this fucking blog are written in my “tired status” – where my mind works in the max. I dunno la if it works with you or not. Trial and error laa.. Haiyaaa.. Itu pun mau kena ajar kaa? Lei gong mei aaaahhh!!
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So, as a conclusion, syok jugak main DotA pakai Enchantress sekali-sekala. Ituah antara hero feveret aku dulu (selain Traxex the Drow Ranger yang bertetek besar, boing~ boing~!! Hahahahah!!).
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Chi~
Chi chi chi~
Woppai~
Boing, boing~
Moge~ Moge~ Moge~
Uh waaauuu~!!
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(Tanya orang-orang yang pernah tgk anime Konjiki No Gash Bell untuk memahami maknanya.. Malu bertanya, sesat jalan..)
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